Full circle with a twist

Old habits die hard … as we go through life and discover new horizons there are always going to be moments of idleness, moments where the fabric of time gets bent and takes us back to a point where we in a split second seem to re-live the past in one way or another.

Love, sadness, joy and happiness … it all comes back some-times as a reminder of what we did well and what we didn’t do so well. Does one have control of these flashes? Do they serve as reminders of what to do and what not to do in the future or are they a mere indication that most things in life seem to be passable in one way or another and no matter how deep the scar … it does heal but the mark there remains so we know we did do something …
In a world comprised of mere technicalities and ‘live for the moment’ mottos it seems as a un-wanted distraction, but he who does not learn history needs to repeat it … and that surely doesn’t lead to progress.

So here I am again … in a way back at a familiar (if not exactly the same) starting point but in totally different circumstances and with a lot of scars to reference back to … will I do better? Will I have the same determination? Will the same old problems creep-up?

One thing I know is that accidents like that just don’t happen … being in the right moment in the right place does not come by coincidence … I have the chance to do it better this time around … and I will

Ablaze

Ravenous fires overshadowing my sanity
Known from the past yet ineffable at this very moment
Fluctuating from one end of the spectrum to the other
I feel consumed by seamless eternity with every passing instant

Forever caught in this dependence
I beg hopelessly for a saviour
Unfathomable is the bliss I feel close to you
Agonizing is the desolation I feel apart from you

Feelings like volcanoes awaiting their turn to erupt
Spontaneous words that must go unspoken
Sweet bliss or torture, the difference is invisible
Raging madness that I cannot express

I die a little with every passing moment unaided
Yet I come alive beyond portrayal with you together
Endless moments with and without you
Relativity that I cannot define ......